Back Again

Well, it’s been a while, hasn’t it? I’ve been away lately because I’ve had my hands full. I had a job. I wanted to write, but after a day of sitting in front of a computer screen, the last thing I wanted to do was sit in front of another one. That has changed I’m afraid. Today I was informed that I have been fired. I have three days left and then it’s over.
I realize that life isn’t fair. I understand that, I do, but I have to say that this is almost criminally unfair to me. I spend 4 years looking for full time employment, I finally find something. The pays no good, but it was close to where I live and it was a very relaxed atmosphere. It was actually not a bad job and 5 months later it’s ripped away from me just like that. Of course in those 5 months, my car insurance has gone up. My phone bill has also increased and I have no idea if my length of employment will qualify me for benefits. Maybe some, but not enough I’m sure. I actually have to re-learn how to live as a jobless person. I forgot what it was like not to have income. I became so used to that bi-weekly paycheck. I was looking forward to this year’s holiday season. I was going to have money to buy gifts. I was going to get into Halloween. I was enjoying being able to splurge a little at the comic book store once in a while. I liked knowing I was able to like a shirt in a store, see that it was maybe ten bucks or so and I could just buy it, guilt free. Now I’m back to worrying over every last dollar. I have to wrestle over a five dollar purchase.
At this point I should say that I am aware there are people out there who are far worse off than myself and if put into perspective, my problems may not be so big. Be that as it may, it makes my pain no less valid. I’ve struggled and fought in ways few could understand just to keep my head above water. How many times do I have to drag myself up only to be slammed back down? How many times do I have to fight this same battle? When will it ever be enough? When will I finally move forward in this world? I’m tired. I’m just so tired struggling just to maintain this Hell I find myself in, and in some cases actually making it worse. Anyone else putting this much into it would be in a very good place by now. I feel like a car stuck in the mud. The wheel spins faster and faster, but I only sink in deeper. If I stop, I go nowhere. There doesn’t seem to be any way to win at this game, but I can’t stop playing. I can’t quit. I wish I could, to be honest, but I can’t. I just think in the universe, effort at some point should be rewarded. I want to cash in now. I don’t know if I can keep doing this over and over. It’s getting tiresome.
Sorry for the downer post, but my head’s in that place. I’ll try to think of something better to write about next time. Promise.

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Need Funders NOW!!!

http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/shelter–11

Hello all

I believe I spoke of this before, but it has come to my attention that my film project is still in dire need of funding and I am here begging (yes, begging) for your support in this. This project is very dear to me and basically was one of only two reasons to live for me right now. The challenge is I need at least fifteen people to donate at least $25 to the project. A link to the campaign is above and below. Now don’t think you’re just giving us this money. We have a large selection of perks to offer in exchange. It will be like buying a film on video, but not just any film. A film you made possible. And if we get this thing shot, I think it could be big. The script is solid (biased opinion, but still) and it contains a twist which I think will have people dropping their jaws. Help me achieve this dream. I realize it’s a lot to ask of people I’ve never met, but when something means this much to you, you’ll do just about anything to make it happen. Please consider this and thank you in advance.

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Wages

I saw a story on the news about workers striking for higher wages. This issue has bugged me for so long now. Worker wages have stayed rock bottom for decades while executive pay has skyrocketed along with corporate profits. Does this picture make sense to anyone? Not me. There are three components to this equation. Two of the three are doing well, while the last one seems to carry the burden. The little guys are killing the backs and wrecking their health for pennies while the fat cats sit behind their desks and grow fatter and are treated like royalty.

I think the call for a higher minimum wage is reasonable. And why can’t the businesses pay? They’re doing a lot better than they say they are. You just have to dig and see the real numbers they’re reporting. The army of execs in their corporate offices are making millions. I say, cut their pay and put that to raises for the workforce. You know, those meaningless cogs that actually do the work that makes you your money. You can have the smartest CEO in the world with the finest training and best ideas in the industry, but if you don’t have ground support to actually generate the income, that CEO isn’t worth spit. Wal-Mart for instance. The execs make a kings fortune every year while their employees slave away in part time hell. They make so little they still need to use food stamp programs to survive. You’re telling me they couldn’t shave a smidgen off the top VP’s salary to afford raises for the people who keep their stores open and running smoothly day in and day out? Is some exec who makes 3 million really going to bitch because his paycheck shrunk by $500? He’s still making more than 90% of the country. Once you pass the seven figure mark on your paycheck, you have no reason to complain about any cuts to pay. If you can’t survive on less than 3 million, you’ve got bigger problems.

I think I mentioned this once before somewhere. I just think if people earned more for their time, they’d be happier at work and do a better job and therefore could increase revenue for the business. It just seems so easy and so simple, yet the 1%  people are so friggin’ greedy and selfish they can’t stand the thought of anyone doing as well as them. They want to be the rich kids on the block, but what good is being rich when the economy has completely deflated?

I remember growing up in the 80’s and the middle class was so strong and because of that so was our economy and our country. Now we have this massive gap between the haves and have nots and it just feels like everything is going to hell. People are just concerned with getting theirs and fail to see that kind of thinking is self-destructive. Our economy is designed in such a way that the success of others can actually benefit you. The stronger we all are, the stronger you will be. The time for greed and selfishness is over. We’re coming to a flashpoint and unless those who have the most change their thinking, we could be in for some real trouble.