As the dwindling lights of 2014 fade, I can feel the optimistic glimmer of 2015 begin to fill my sight. Although, is it a true feeling or my own emotions playing a horrible joke on me as they did the year before this one? 2014 began with heartbreak and abysmal betrayal and while I’d like to say it got better after that, it really didn’t. I’m afraid I’ve had to file 2014 as one of the worst years of my life to be honest, and in continued honesty, 2015 doesn’t hold much promise either. I’m tired of proclaiming that next year is going to be my year. The last ten years have been my years, yet they haven’t been at all, so I have given up the pretense and have decided to accept the fact that this year will be just as all the others before it.
However, this year I opted out of any parties or festivities in favor of a quiet night alone. I did not do this out of self pity or depression, I simply chose to spend my new year’s eve in the quiet solitude of my room. I didn’t feel like celebrating this past year and I have little enthusiasm to ring in this new one as well. Okay, I can see how that can be seen as self pity, but I swear to you it’s not. I guess in a way, I chose to do something different maybe in some kind of hope that if I do different things, different things will happen. Even if that different thing is boring as Hell. I wish all who bother to read this blog a safe and happy new year, of course, and I guess there is still that little voice in the back of my mind that urges me on to hope that this year will, indeed, be different. The little bugger just refuses to go away. Let’s hope that this year, at very long last, it will be right.
Happy new year, everyone!

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